My first thought would be yes. Of course creativity is worth it. All things wonderful and entertaining are born from creative minds, but lately I’ve wondered if it takes a special kind of person to deal with the side effects of being creative.
How awesome is it that we can envision something amazing in our minds and then simply bring that vision to life. It sounds so easy, doesn’t it? Well, it’s not! At least not for me. Not once in my life have I been able to draw, write, build, paint, or sew without screwing it all up.
Nothing is more frustrating that watching what should be a simple project slowly start to die by your hands. It’s about this time that I have to summon every ounce of self-control I have not to throw the project across the room, stomp on it until it’s fun-size, douse it in a little lighter fluid, light the fire, and dance around the flames.
Is failure not the worst feeling in the world? It’s the worst word in the world, too. No wait…’moist.’ Moist is the worst word in the world, but ‘failure’ is a very close second. Just once I would like to get something right the first time. Maybe it’s just me but creative projects, no matter the size, bring up some deeply rooted issues. Issues I didn’t even know I had. When a project doesn’t turn out right doesn’t it make you feel like you failed not just at that project but at life?
All I am trying to do is paint my dining room table and re-upholster the cushions. Easy, right? There’s no pressure or deadlines. I could paint it any color I want or saw the stupid thing in half and no one would care. So why did I break down in tears because I can’t seem to get it to look like the freaking Pinterest picture?!!
For some reason I got it in my head that if I can’t do this one insignificant thing then I must be the most talentless loser ever to walk this earth. I should just stay in my little cubicle pushing paper forever because that is all I will ever be good at. That kind of thinking isn’t so healthy for the ol’ self-esteem.
Why do I do this to myself?
Once the tears have dried and if you’ve managed not to set anything on fire, a choice is presented to you. Do you let it beat you as it laughs in your face, or do you get up, kick it in the mouth and make it do what you want?!
I believe if you choose to give up, that feeling of failure will stay with you forever. It is of the utmost importance to persevere. Being married to an independent filmmaker I get to watch him go through this everyday. Nothing is more inspiring than seeing him just about to put his fist through his computer, stop, take a deep breath and a step back, then come back and turn his mess into something beautiful.
That’s what you have to do. Step back, breathe, and then get back to work! In the end you’ll see that your project turned out even better than you originally imagined. It’s then that you can sit back, gaze upon your masterpiece, and say it was worth it.